On it's way

InsyaAllah....
when everything has gone pretty well and settle....
will start on the look for one...
Honda Civic 1.6 VTI....

=)

I'm Back~!

it's been soOOooOo long I didn't blog here...
miss blogging here thou...
was browsing and reading some of my precedent...

dropping by just to add on a little life story of mine...
of what's happening to my family lately....
I'm busy with my dad who is still in SGH...
hopefully he'll be discharge by next week...
he's in the hospital since mid march...
love to see you back at home Ayah....
he's getting much better now....
able to move and do things all by himself, Alhamdulillah....
recall those days where Ayah had his open heart surgery...
were moments where my mum, sis and myself having hard time....

things happen so sudden and least expected.....
the night Ayah had the attack right after maghrib, luckily I was at home...
was suppose to go for gym that evening....
Ayah kept on reminding me of the time, but I was just lazy to get myself ready....
hati ni berat nak pergi gym..., I dont feel good that day...
I guess it's a sign of something gonna happen that evening....
he went pale, cold sweat, chest pain and breathless......
I dont know what to do...
didnt even come to my mind to call for ambulance....
we went to A&E the next morning....
doctor found 3 major blocks....
unfortunately the blocks were the main coronary arteries....
Alhamdulillah, the surgery went smoothly....
and I'm much relief now looking at Ayah's condition....

thanks to all my close paternal and maternal family members who have always come visiting my dad now and then...
to my understanding colleagues, my primary school buddies who willing to hang out with me at the hospital, they came more than once hee~ I know something rare people do, anyway thanks girls for the company....
thanks All again for the care and concern....
I feel the LOVE....

Kwang Kwang Kwang...

Updates?!
Nothing to update....
see how lah eh....
when I have the time....

shuffle up adopt from ophelia

1. Ensure your music player is in the shuffle mode.
2. Press next/foward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question, even if it doesn't make sense.


How are you feeling today?
lene marlin - unforgiveable sinner

Will you get far in life?
leaan rimes - how do i live

How do your friends see you?
clay aiken - solitaire

Will you get married?
hoobastank - the reason

What is your life's theme song?
bryan adams - cloud no. 9

What is the story of your life?
cake - i will survive

What was high school like?
ryan cabrera - true

How can you get ahead in life?
enrique iglesias & whitney houston - could

What is tomorrow going to be like?
alicia keys - if i ain't got you

What is the best thing about your friends?
baby bash feat akon - baby i'm back

What is in store for the next weekend?
shania twain - you're still the one

What song best describes you?
lonestar - amazed

How is your life going?
savage garden - truly madly deeply

What song will play at your funeral?
brian mcfadden feat delta goodrem - almost here

How does the world see you?
rupee - tempted to touch

Will you have a happy life?
marc anthony - you sang to me

What do your friends really think of you?
keane - everybody's changing

What song describes the person you're attracted to?
3 doors down - here without you

What message would you like to tell the next generation?
westlife - more than words

Do you have a deep dark secret?
kevin lyttle - turn me on

hahahaaaaa...... fantastic! try it~ =)

get-together

after 9 years we left secondary school, at last I managed to get hold of these two classmates of mine.... great night, we laughed non-stop, we recall those nerdy days...... Kelvin de catalyst for that night, he recall the time when I did an introduction of myself to the class. doing some hand signals, simplified my name. a number "2" and letter "T"..... seriously I don't remember doing that, but anyway it was funny. hilarious. well that's how I make people remember my name, especially for the non-malays. and yeah I know there's this petrol brand for bikes called 2T. hahaha......

oh well, I just don't get it why some people find it's hard to pronounce my name. don't mention about my second name, cos it will sounds even worse.
T-U-T-Y...... it's short and simple yet difficult. four letter word! urgh~

some tounge says Tuty as :-

1. Duty... "D" n "T" is sooo far out lah!
2. Tee-U-tee... stressing on the phonic... ha ha
3. Tuu-tie... utter the "ty" as tie? something like to say BY?
4. Tweety... yeah yeah I thought I thought a pussy cat! oh I did!
5. Tutti frutti... this is nice, I loike~

anyway, what a coincidence. great minds I guess. me and Irene have a similar watch!


same brand and design but not the color.....

time by DKNY, 11pm *wink*

oh I miss you folks already. thanks pseudochic for joining us that night.... X-Men eh~! suka kau eh~~

something to code and share. I was listening to syarahan on radio warna this morning. this ustaz mentioned why particularly young married couples end up separate ways.
he said.... "kerana tanggungjawabnya kepada Allah, iaitu bersolat, memperbanyakkan bersujud, jarang atau tidak dilaksanakan, maka itu dia juga tidak mampu melaksanakan tanggungjawabnya sebagai suami atau isteri.... tidak mampu menyelesaikan masalah dengan baik, sebaliknya membuat sesuatu mengikut nafsu.... "

hmmm, senang cakap atau cakap kasar, kalau nak BERBINI, mesti cukup bersedia PIKUL BEBAN INI.... hehehe...

To My Dad

To my dad on his day,

Of whom I am a living will

May your happiness fulfill

Your goodness, as is just and right.

Deeds are seeds upon the night

As wind and wonder have their way,

Delivering the destined light.

for him I've blossomed to a fine young lady, despite his fierceness, hot tempered, stern, strict, old fashioned etc, I know he is doing his job as a father. it's qualities like these that keep us aware of who we are and what we can give to life. it's qualities like these, Ayah, that you have taught me and adeq to value. through your influence, your example and your love. it has made me love you very much Ayah. and each year that passes, I even more glad, more grateful and proud just to call him Ayah! Thank you, Ayah...

with that I would like to dedicate this song to my dearest AYAH,
(click to listen, the song very syahdu...you peepz would like it too, enjoyz!)

Lelaki (warkah seorang anak).wma

Lyrics to the song:

Telah berdiri seorang lelaki

Hidup berbekal kecekalan diri

Walau menghadapi sejuta cabaran

Terus berpaut pada kebenaran

Berkurun sudah kau merintis jalan

Bertahun sudah hasratmu terhalang

Tetap bersemarak api keazaman

Bara keramat doa dan harapan

Kau melangkah bermula dari lembah

Kau mendaki setangga ke setangga

Semakin hampir menjejaki puncak

Semakin sering kau ditikam onak

Namun kerana kau lelaki

Derita dapat diselindungi

Tangisanmu rahsia dihati

Kesepianlah teman nan sejati

Di dalamnya kau mengenal diri

Tenangnya wajah matangnya bicara

Kerana kau menyakini

Tuhanlah yang maha ESA

Kerana kau menyakini

Tuhanlah yang maha ESA

and to ALL fathers in the universe...

Happy Fathers' Day!

I dreamt HIM

hahahaaa...
what a ridiculous dream. guess I'm SOOOoo or OVER obsessed by him.
he said nothing in my dream. just smile. HAIZ~ damn! I should have hug him ya?
he's married nobody husband but has a girlfriend thou, but and he's truly CHARMING. how I wish my future half looks like him. and would always always remain good looking even when he's above 50 *dream on*

Birth name: John Christopher Depp II
Born: June 9, 1963 (age 43) ... his birthday is coming!

can't resist, I surf for HIS pictures!!! aaahhh~~ an eye candy!


HAIZ~~ I'm melting.


double HAIZ~~ without a smile he's fine & lovely.


triple HAIZ~~ fierce but smooth.



even he's in pirates uniform, he's yummy!



look at him, stylist gorgeous him. padahal dah bapak orang~
hey he has to look good, he's a celebrity remember? c"p)
oh that's not his wife in the picture, she's his longtime girlfriend.
with his two kids, Lily-Rose Depp, 6, and Jack Depp, 4.

in class now actually, supposed to do 6 exercises. can't do the last one, so this is my exercise 6, HAHA!!
ok DAH! bye~

multi task

9.50am:
I'm in class right now. very sleepy. my eyes can't open. worst still have to stare the monitor. this course makes me face the screen 24/7. today's topic ADVANCED SPREADSHEET.
aarrgghh~ sleepy...hungry... yawn~

oh by the way, didn't knew that my lecturer is a malay. she looks like a chinese to me.
come to know about it when I signed my attendance. in kepo mode, browsing through the attendance and that's where I saw.... Trainer: Ms Sabrina Zainal... oh melayu....
C-Rai-Years-Ly... she don't look and sounds like one. k will side track again later heh~!

10.22am:
haha... ophelia what you doing early in the morning? you not working right~ yeah lets go get Jack Sparrow today babe! check the show time already? text me soon kay~
hmm next movie would be SHREK 3!!!
oh I brought the Qabil Khusry Qabil Igam today babe. Will pass it to ya later... sure thing kau melalak, emotionally disturbed!

10.35am:
oh Janz you another bummer. how syiok not working or schooling today. yeah babe me pun melalak giler~
having a break now. freezing cold in this IT lecture room. I'll be back in 20 mintues time.
TerrA!

10.57am:
I'm back in action pack! whey~ it's not that I don't pay attention to Ms Sabrina ok, but she's going through some basic skills which I'm familiar with c"p)
pseudochic, you another bummer peeping here eh... hehe. you wanna know about Anggun Seminar that I went to? It's about body & health management babe. how to keep your body fit, and not like YO-YO. the secret is YOU MUST EAT! hehe... kay will elaborate more when I see ya...
Lesson starts!

12.35pm t0 1.45pm :
out for lunch!!!

2.24pm:
confirmed with ophelia the time & venue to catch Pirates. c ya later babe~
noted - tampines century square, 6.30pm show time...
I'll zoom there once I'm done,
latest by 6.15pm....

2.50pm:
BWUEK~!
I'm having this oats & honey crunchy bar... yum yum, jemput~
anyway, sheesh.. I'm having cramps today, 1st day lah...
just remember that I didn't pin up the entry on my colleagues farewell dinner, last last friday.
hmmm....

3.00pm:
*yawn*.... continue with the assignments given....
poor thing Mr Tan who sits across me. he lost his voice and so when he speaks he sounds like a BAPOK! haha... so please DON'T SPEAK~ I know what you're saying~ so please stop explaining~ don't tell me cause it hurts~....opps!
k back to study...

5.03pm:
gosh its 5pm already... and yet we have not finish...
kay I shall end here.....
see ya peepz! take care~

new watch

oh baby~

can't wait to own you.

come to mama.

nice ey!

DKNY Women's Brown Mesh Strap Watch

and I'm watching Pirates of Carribean today~

woo hoo!

oh my darling Jack Sparrow,

I'm coming to rescue you...

c"p)

//Updates//

as you can see the entry title. heh~ well not only I need to find the time, but also mood you see.okay let's start with my sis went to the country down under. organizing a conference for MOTOROLA... Hello Moto~ she came back last saturday. and of course Ibu & me were in tears *sooOo swwweeeTtt* Ayah too, but he controlled *hah~ ego!* hihi....





she gain weight?! hehe... chubby is cute DeQ~
these are selective pictures I edited:


aaAAaawWWw~ we miss you too *sob*sob*


here comes the bus....


finding Nemo... Nemo is in Sydney not Perth dear~ try again!


I have no idea where and what this is, but love the picture.


to the ..... hotel ey!


she bought me a dress. from dotti... nice~ love it......

hehe... ok enough of this aussie thingy. wanna view more as usual click to where? you should know where =) okay~ another update story...... had a sisterly hang out with both DeQ and Janz last thursday, the vesak day. kind of a belated birthday outing for me especially from Janz *wink*. had indian cuisine, very full feeling. never tasted briyani dam. hmmm oklah, to me the taste is like normal briyani, so what's the diff? we drop by SGH, as our dear Aunt was admitted the day before. later then, we chilled at Gloria's Jeans. and yeah Janz, I agree with you, what a bitching session we had hehe~ no! we'll never stop talking.....


snappy snappy SNAP!!!


I love this too Janz~ Cool huh....

lastly,

thanks Janz~ I love you even MORE!!!

.:. can't wait .:.

DeQ coming back tomorrow night.
we all miss her.
can't wait to fetch her.

meeting my beauteous this coming monday for dinner.
miss them, can't wait.

can't wait going back to school.
studious, bookish, bookworm and busy.

can't wait to watch Pirates of Caribbean.
At World's End.
Johny Depp the beau.

off she goes to PERTH

yesterday night we sent her. flight at 1.20am. checked in at 12am.

miss her already!!! alhamdulillah, she reached her destination safe and sound.

she message me this morning at 6.50am. take care DeQ~

this afternoon went to tan tock seng hospital with ayah and ibu. visit wak wadi.

sudden stroke and coma attacked. according to doctor, its critical.

nothing much can be done. it's all matter of time.

kita hanya dapat doakan yang terbaik untuknya. dan redha.

best shots

natural, candid, best shots and edit.
taken on Mother's day last sunday.

view more? visit my multiply page ayte... do place some comments. thanks!

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7th month in 2007

number seven "7". I guess its a lucky number for this year. I just notice that July is also known as the BONUS month for us the civil servants. money will be credit into my account - begining of the month and mid too... wow~~ weeEEeee!!! ching~ ching~

my parents had received the letter from the CPF board (GST offset). already done for them through online minutes ago. but where's mine & adeq's? hmmm..... probably today. later. if not......... aku memberontak~~!!!! hehe....

and July would be a Nasi Minyak Feast for me. noted, practically every weekends I have a wedding/engagement to attend....

currently I have been watching this malay drama - without miss! considering hunky Fahrin Ahmad the main cast, charming guy. tall... dark... handsome...haiz~~~ and so the theme song has been like playing & stuck in my brain. very old school, classic song. by an indonesian singer, DWEN his name. very schmaltzy, sentimental & emotional song. the lyrics below....

Kau yang ku sayang

Dari dulu, kini dan selama-lamanya

Sebelum kenal dirimu

Sebelum jumpa dirimu

Kau sering datang dalam mimpiku

Kata hatiku

Selalu membisik kau adalah milikku

Biar lama pun kutunggu

Saat kedewasaanmu

Daku tak pernah jemu menantimu

Disaat ku sendiri

Ku bayangkan wajahmu

Terkadang ku berilusi

Tentang dikau dan aku

Ku harapkan semua ini

Esok kan jadi kenyataan

Dan aku berjanji

Kan ku bahagiakan dirimu selamanya

Kuharapkan semua ini

Akan segera terjadi

Dan semoga nanti

Bukan hanya sekadar impian belaka

who shall I serenade this song to?! anyone?

...........

I know He saw me,
it was obvious.
He turned around and walked away.

He brought me in and He resigned then,
not even once He seems to appear.
He thanked me through messages He can,
and that's that all I could hear.

it's not attention I asked for,
simply courtesy, sincere appreciation comes from Him.

but anyway,
may euphoria be with Him always.
be indebted and bless for He,
shared and directed me.

hopefully through these deeds that I've contribute,
in one way or another
ballyhoo me...
in our next world....
InsyaAllah.........

show me the MONEY~!

wooHoo~!
we'll receive money again on 1st July...heh~!
watch news yesterday? regarding GST offset package? NO?!
oh well you are not too late to know more about it, especially when it concern money $$$ Ching~ Ching~!
visit www.gstoffset.gov.sg to read more...
remember not to miss the deadlines...
we'll receive this GST credits for conservative 4 years okay~
so quick start signing up using ATMs/online - easiest way for me.....

I'll upload the Mother's Day pics soon... sorry cuzzies~!
check out my multiply ok?
chEErs~~~!

12th evry mth, $$$

I suppose today is the happiest day for all civil servants. why? well indeed, we received again the performance bonus(PB). normally its once a year, in March, but provided you are being graded C and above, based on your work review & development. and I heard this year would be the last year, hmmm... not sure about that.

we were excited about the pay raised for this month, but instead we were surprised with the PB of 0.5 that is the net salary plus 50% of your gross salary(minus 20% of course for the CPF.. ish!) Lumayan kan~~~ hehe... inilah untungnya kerja dengan gobermen... I suppose the reason why they raise our pay basically of the GST coming in July. ultimately there's nothing to be glad of. like my mum said, " besar periuk besar lagi keraknya... yang penting biarpun sikit tapi berkat tu ade... berkat yang kita nak... " true enough....

it's sad to hear people(around me) who are married decided to go separate ways. some are young, less than 5 yrs and some already more den 10yrs married. I can't comment, only listen. but on the whole, they mention the same line, " takdir~ dah takde jodoh... " sad very sad...

and what a coincidence, yesterday, friday night, as usual had my religious class. Ustazah Habsah touched on how easily people point finger at FATE (takdir). she said, " jodoh bukan datang dengan sendiri... kita/manusia yang sebenarnye menentukan... kita diberi AKAL untuk BERFIKIR, dan HATI untuk MEMILIH... suatu kebaikan yang datang pada diri kita adalah takdir yang diberi oleh Allah... tapi keburukkan yang datang pada diri kita adalah atas pilihan/kesilapan diri kita sendiri... melainkan ajal dan maut, itu ketentuanNya... selain dari itu kita yang corak perjalanan hidup kita... "

" Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang manusia itu, melainkan manusia itu sendiri yang mengubah nasibnya... "

" Tiada manusia yang merancang untuk gagal, tapi manusia selalunya gagal untuk merancang..."

p/s: I wanna take part in DeaL or No DeaL... $$$~!!!!!

deLaY

the flight is delay...
from 11.40am to 2.40pm, then to 4.30pm...
doesn't matter what the time would be, we pray that their fly back to singapore would be a safe one...
InsyaAllah...

My Collections

*base on my own true stories, dedicate to Mr S, guess you are not meant for me *

Just Tell Me

I don't know how long I can go on living this lie,
Pretending I don't love you when I look into your eyes.
You told me not to fall for you, you wouldn't be there to catch me,
But my heart just wouldn't listen and now this feeling scares me.
I'm running around in circles, not knowing what road to take
Scared to take the roads unknown the decision is so hard to make.
I wish you felt the same for me that I so strongly have for you.
I pray at night that God will hear and make this one wish come true.
You confuse me with your actions, sometimes I feel like you more than care.
Other times your cold and bitter like when ever she is there.
I'm tired of hiding how I feel so please be honest with me,
If you love me then just tell me, if you don't then let me be.

Thoughts of Love

I wonder if he realizes how much I care about him...

That I spend hours thinking about him...

Hours talking about him...

I wonder if he realizes that all my friends know all about him,

But he doesn't even know them...

Does it even cross his mind that someone right under his nose cares so much for him?

That everything makes me think of him....

Many song lyrics remind me of him....

Does it occur to him that the person who loves him is right in front of him?

I guess it's not that obvious....

One day I'll tell him everything...

How I've day-dreamed about us being together...

That I've dreamt of being in his arms...

Maybe one day I'll tell him,

But today is not that day.

Luv,

.:.dollyduz dove.:.

Tua Mengejar Kita

april gonna end soon. hehe...
very tired lately. busy with science mid year practicals exam preparation. body ache everywhere. climb up and down the stairs. I just hate the moment where I forgot to either bring down or up stuffs to the labs. frustrating. so forgetful. OLD I suppose. it's a sign~

while surfing the net, found this old school video. suits with what I'm blogging right now. ha ha ha..... Enjoyz!