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*base on my own true stories, dedicate to Mr S, guess you are not meant for me *

Just Tell Me

I don't know how long I can go on living this lie,
Pretending I don't love you when I look into your eyes.
You told me not to fall for you, you wouldn't be there to catch me,
But my heart just wouldn't listen and now this feeling scares me.
I'm running around in circles, not knowing what road to take
Scared to take the roads unknown the decision is so hard to make.
I wish you felt the same for me that I so strongly have for you.
I pray at night that God will hear and make this one wish come true.
You confuse me with your actions, sometimes I feel like you more than care.
Other times your cold and bitter like when ever she is there.
I'm tired of hiding how I feel so please be honest with me,
If you love me then just tell me, if you don't then let me be.

Thoughts of Love

I wonder if he realizes how much I care about him...

That I spend hours thinking about him...

Hours talking about him...

I wonder if he realizes that all my friends know all about him,

But he doesn't even know them...

Does it even cross his mind that someone right under his nose cares so much for him?

That everything makes me think of him....

Many song lyrics remind me of him....

Does it occur to him that the person who loves him is right in front of him?

I guess it's not that obvious....

One day I'll tell him everything...

How I've day-dreamed about us being together...

That I've dreamt of being in his arms...

Maybe one day I'll tell him,

But today is not that day.

Luv,

.:.dollyduz dove.:.

Tua Mengejar Kita

april gonna end soon. hehe...
very tired lately. busy with science mid year practicals exam preparation. body ache everywhere. climb up and down the stairs. I just hate the moment where I forgot to either bring down or up stuffs to the labs. frustrating. so forgetful. OLD I suppose. it's a sign~

while surfing the net, found this old school video. suits with what I'm blogging right now. ha ha ha..... Enjoyz!

performing Umrah

went to changi airport yesterday evening...

send-off my dearest grammas, aunties & uncles...

performing Umrah for about 2 weeks...

they'll be back on 5th of may, the evening...

I would love to perform one, one day InsyaAllah...

probably Haj instead of Umrah...

since Haj is the 5th pillar of Islam...

wishing them a safe and wonderful journey...

=)

p/s: doakan untuk saya yg baik2 ye~ *wink*

tanda 100 hari sebelum mati....

reading this scare me....
some wakefulness....
Sesungguhnya mengingati mati itu adalah bijak.....

TANDA 100 HARI:
Ini adalah tanda pertama dari Allah SWT kepada hambanya dan hanya akan disedari oleh mereka yang dikehendakinya. Walaubagaimanapun semua orang Islam akan mendapat tanda ini cuma samada mereka sedar atau tidak sahaja. Tanda ini akan berlaku lazimnya selepas waktu Asar.Seluruh tubuh iaitu dari hujung rambut sehingga ke hujung kaki akan mengalami getaran atau seakan-akan mengigil. Contohnya seperti daging lembu yang baru saja disembelih dimana jika diperhatikan dengan teliti kita akan mendapati daging tersebut seakan-akan bergetar. Tanda ini rasanya lazat dan bagi mereka yang sedar dan berdetik dihati bahawa mungkin ini adalah tanda mati maka getaran ini akan berhenti dan hilang setelah kita sedar akan kehadiran tanda ini. Bagi mereka yang tidak diberi kesedaran atau mereka yang hanyut dengan kenikmatan tanpa memikirkan soal kematian, tanda ini akan lenyap begitu sahaja tanpa sebarang munafaat.Bagi yang sedar dengan kehadiran tanda ini maka ini adalah peluang terbaik untuk memunafaatkan masa yang ada untuk mempersiapkan diri dengan amalan dan urusan yang akan dibawa atau ditinggalkan sesudah mati.

TANDA 40 HARI:
Tanda ini juga akan berlaku sesudah waktu Asar. Bahagian pusat kita akan berdenyut-denyut. Pada ketika ini daun yang tertulis nama kita akan gugur dari pokok yang letaknya di atas Arash Allah SWT. Maka Malaikat Maut akan mengambil daun tersebut dan mula membuat persediaannya ke atas kita,antaranya ialah ia akan mula mengikuti kita sepanjang masa. Akan terjadi Malaikat Maut ini akan memperlihatkan wajahnya sekilas lalu dan jika ini terjadi, mereka yang terpilih ini akan merasakan seakan-akan bingung seketika. Adapun Malaikat Maut ini wujudnya cuma seorang tetapi kuasanya untuk mencabut nyawa adalah bersamaan dengan jumlah nyawa yang akan dicabutnya.

TANDA 7 HARI:
Adapun tanda ini akan diberikan hanya kepada mereka yang diuji dengan musibah kesakitan di mana orang sakityang tidak makan secara tiba-tiba ianya berselera untuk makan.

TANDA 3 HARI:
Pada ketika ini akan terasa denyut nadi bahagian tengah dahi kita iaitu diantara dahi kanan dan kiri. Jika tanda ini dapat dikesan maka berpuasalah kita selepas itu supaya perut kita tidak mengandungi banyak najis dan ini akan memudahkan urusan orang yang akan memandikan kita nanti.Ketika ini juga mata hitam kita tidak akan bersinar lagi dan bagi orang yang sakit hidungnya akan perlahan-lahan jatuh dan ini dapat dikesan jika kita melihatnya dari bahagian sisi. Telinganya akan layu dimana bahagian hujungnya akan beransur-ansur masuk kedalam. Telapak kakinya yang terlunjur akan perlahan-lahan jatuh ke depan dan sukar ditegakkan.

TANDA 1 HARI:
Akan berlaku sesudah waktu Asar dimana kita akan merasakan satu denyut nadi sebelah belakang iaitu di kawasan ubun-ubun di mana ini menandakan kita tidak akan sempat untuk menemui waktu Asar keesokan harinya.

TANDA AKHIR:
Akan berlaku keadaan di mana kita akan merasakan satu keadaan sejuk dibahagian pusat dan ianya akan turun kepinggang dan seterusnya akan naik kebahagian halkum. Ketika ini hendaklah kita terus mengucap kalimah syahadah dan berdiam diri dan menantikan kedatangan malaikat maut untuk menjemput kita kembali kepada Allah SWT yang telah menghidupkan kita dan sekarang akan mematikan pula.

castle in the sky

ok this is just some flight of fantasy.

how I wish I could get one.

I have things over japanese/chinese/korean look.

serious~!

and so at the moment, kinda falling in LURP with...............

QUE HAIDAR!!!

heh...

or he's real name is Tengku Iskhan Shah Tengku Haidar.

nice name, suits the person.

ok dah, tu jer~!

to those who are working tomorrow...

HappY WorkinG~ MondaY BlueSssSSss~~~

Hady and Taufik at Malay Heritage Centre

I'm helping a friend who works at MHC to spread & publicizes this.

help the Malay Heritage Centre by supporting the event attached.

so to all Taufik & Hady die hard fans out there,

what you waiting for? pick that phone of yours & call NOW!

for 2007

for this year I bought myself........................
teRRa!!!



yes baby.... front, back, centre, side shots.....
but only these 3 are the best it models for me....
hahaha.... WTH~!
its green yo~ very refreshing indeed.....
it makes my face radiant & glow....hehe like real~
you don't believe me? see for yourself....

hahaha, crappy reason....
wateva lah eh~~~

again, HappY BirthdaY to ME~!

HeR GiFTs

thanks to all for the gifts & dinners too.... I do really appreciate it.... for those who perhaps missed wishing me or feel like adding more gifts.... by all means, while April last~! heh~

again, thank you all very very muchies *muaksS*

kokoru kara... watashi aishe teru!!!

(from the bottom of my heart... I love U!)

anyway I'm "broken-hearted" today....

I accidentally drop my Fossil watch =(

it was my 22nd birthday treat....

so now the LCD half heart, half blank red....

see what i mean??? =(
guess someone should buy me a watch? hmmm... can i have DKNY? hehe~~~
been longing for one actually....
but the one that I've been eyeing on, is no more to be found at any stores...
another sad case =(
oh well~

HaPPy BirthDaY to ME~!

HappY BirthdaY to ME!~

thanks to all gals and guys for the wonderful and thoughtful wishes!~
I do appreciate it....
the thought that counts....
c",)

shopping....

from IKEA

• rugs
• compartments
• scent candles
• cushion
• kasset box

form GIANT

• 0.6L rice cooker
• oven toaster
• bedsheets

had a quality time with my mum and sister. shopping at the new outlet COURTS-IKEA-GIANT at tampines.

TMNT

can't wait to watch my action pack favourite heroes (back in era late 80s). Raphael, Donatello, Michelangelo and Leonardo. not fergetting Master Splinter and April the reporter. coming this week....anyone care to watch with ME? heh~
oh come on dude....cowwa bungga~~~




oh yes, speaking of which these turtles made me recall the "stupidity" of me back in those days, heheheee....
its between my mum and me....
i saw a cat went into the drain at the roadside. so was asking my mum....

ME: Bu, kucing sekolah dalam longkang eh?
BU: kucing tak sekolah....
ME: abih kenapa dia masuk dalam longkang? macam ninja turtles, kan belajar dalam longkang....
BU: tu cartoon...

silly me~

LooK-AlikeS

hehe...well said~~ c",)

mission not accomplish

well i guess taking leave really meant to stay at home for me. had made so many plans for today but ultimately, I just lay on the couch watching tv. I sprained my waist. did pilates yesterday morning, guess too much stretching hehe....well anyway good news! I've lost 2 kilos. for the past 2 weeks, practially everyday I did workout, food wise, well eat moderately, don't skip your meals. infact you should have 5 meals instead of 3. yeah tea breaks in between, and try not to consume anything after 8 or 9pm. no matter what exercise is the most important key factor to lose and tone your body. indeed I felt more energetic lately =)

anyhow, met my dear ladies last saturday. as usual we did some shopping spree!!! hmmm, I spent the most in the end. oh oh~ me & pseudochic did some make over for ophelia hehe~ greatest gratitudes to M.A.C too. okay lets pin up the pictures!!! oh by the way, I like the candid picture of yours in your blog ophelia...COOL~~~





this taken unintentionally....but we do look good~ heh!


me & ophelia "memory daun pisang"..... sassy lady valiant & pseudochic....


nice rite~~~


ok this one I was intsructed by the lady in white to snap....so don't blame me for this... noOOo COMMENTOS! *luff histerically*

bookends...

to be honest, I've been feeling for some time that I'm slightly stuck in a rut. I love my family. I love my close relatives. I love my friends. would die for them. but apart of me would quite like to meet a MAN, and unless I manage either to grab any or to steal from any. hmm, neither of which is a particularly an appealing options. you agree with me? hahahaaa......

feel like having Ramen... anyone? =)

pecah perut....

daku ketawa tak terhingga....
afdlin and his gang are superbly genius~ totally~
hilang tension gue...
you should watch dE videos =)


TEACHING ENGLISH


"kita kena enjoy dalam pelajaran,senang masuk dalam otak kita yg berjambul..."
"sometimes, cat stevens cross the road also...."
"how much I love you~ the rice..."
HAHAHAHA....


MEMINANG


hilarious~~~
these videos really make my day....

Tickle results

I'm bored....

so did some tickling questionaire about maself =)

and so according to Tickle~~

(1) Tuty Alawiyah, your inner rock star is Beyoncé

We're crazy in love for you, dreamgirl! Your rock star counterpart is none other than smooth
crooner Beyoncé. You've always known you were a bit of a diva, and it's no surprise that you'd have a magnetic stage presence and voice to match. Your foxy style shows people that there's no bigger star in the room than you. Work it!

(2) Tuty Alawiyah, if you were a movie, you'd be a Suspenseful Thriller

Nothing is simple. Especially you. Like your movie match, you've got lots of plot twists, and you'd like to keep it that way. That's right, you're no open book.Whether or not you actually lurk in the shadows, you do like to keep people in the dark sometimes. Mysterious and enigmatic, you keep people guessing. When they think they've got you figured out, you enjoy throwing a curve ball their way. Maybe it's the element of surprise that tickles your fancy. Perhaps it's the shock value. Or maybe you're just intensely private. In any case, you keep life intriguing and unpredictable. And that's what makes you such an interesting individual.

(3) Tuty Alawiyah, you're destined for The Bachelor/Bachelorette

Blind dates, double dates, 1-800-DATE, setups, mixers — despite trying all the usual (an unusual) ways of meeting people you still haven't found that perfect someone. It's time to think inside the box, inside the television box, that is. The Bachelor/Bachelorette is your reality show because it may be the best way to find someone who is daring, unabashed, and ready to do something crazy, like...say, get engaged in front of millions of people.Since you love the hunt and have always been a competitor, what better way to prove your personality, charm, and sex appeal than a little game of competitive dating? Fifteen to one odds? No problem — you've worked parties twice that size and still managed to reel in the prize catch. Hey, if The Bachelor/Bachelorette doesn't yield a soul mate, at least you'll get the next best thing: an agent.

Its March!~

time flies. March begins. fast huh?! siapa yang kejar siapa? kita kejar masa atau masa kejar kita? hmmm...... anyway today I'm not gonna talk about time flies or walk or jump etc. its just the thought of cepatnye masa tu berlalu~~~

well yesterday me went down to tampines. as usual end of the month, settle some errands. it was raining yesterday afternoon til today, the whole day non stop. tampines~ me would only drop by end of the month, unless its necessary. so I must say its been quite a while I have not been window shopping at TM & CS. so did some retail therapy, and end up I bought 3 long sleeves dresses!!! 3 babe~ banyak tu~~~ but hey its sale lah! 30% off~~ according to the cost price, all 3 might just cost me almost 120$........hmmm cheap rite after the discount? great deal, guess end of CNY, clearance sale. oh the store I went to was ALANO. not familiar huh? well brand doesn't matter to me but the SOPHISTICATED CHIC style, you know those with kembang payung, pleats & ribbons...heh! sooOOo ME!

colors - black, light brown & purple....nice! =)

=)

Finally!
jeng jeng jeng~~~



yeah! bought myself a pair of madrid birkie last wednesday, cost me 79$. yeah as u can see me size 39~ big huh?! to pseudochic, thanks babe for accompany me even with the walking from wheelock to centrepoint. I know it was like one end to another but you were always there for me *muakz* chey jiwa-jiwa pulak diaaaaAAaa~~~. would like to purchase another pair probably when i receive my performance bonus somewhere in late march or early april. yeah baby yeah~~ $$$ on its way!

and on the same wednesday night, while I was chilling at starbucks, I received a call from my aunt (ibu cik). a shocking news. a family friend to my cuz met an accident at north-south highway, ipoh-perak. I supposed everyone read or heard about the fatal U turn for duo from tampines two days ago. delicate life is.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya, Muhd Redhuan @ Wan Hussain....
Amin....
Al-fateha.....



***in memory***
we with Allahyarham Wan Hussain(stands beside me)

pyjamas party!!!

woo hoo!! can't wait to have dE pyjamas party at pseudochic's crib.
been planning since last year, which we intend to have it at some selective hotels.
but because of our tight schedules and some unforseen circumtances,

we didn't make it happen.

I'll be going to my cousin's place first for her son's marhaban - cukur rambut,
then me ZZOOOOOMM to kallang.
hmmm, probably I'll drop some words (here) tomorrow about what's happening ya~~~

provided pseudochic allow me to use her lappie =)

morning glory

GooD MorninG SunshinE~~~
well me can't sleep after doing morning prayer as usual, kinda excited to water the plants this morning. normally its my parents daily routine job to water them. why am I extra helpful today? well there's always a reason right~ okay let me introduce.... jeng jeng jeng~~~



welcome to the FAM~~ OrchiD! sOoOo Clever~~ heh!
there's this temporary flowers & plants store, hmm not exactly store course its like an open space right in front of my residence (which used to be a temporary wet market). guess its all because of CNY or else its just an empty space. there's so many beautiful & colourful flowers, so dE geram~ so i pester my dad that i want a pot of orchid, NO actually 3 POTS (course there were 3 colors ie. purple, white & orange). it was 18$ per pot at first but yesterday it went down to 10$ per pot. my dad disagreed and instructed me to just get a pot. he said "nanti sape yg nak jaga? mula-mula jer ghairah...nanti malas! sudah! beli satu jer..." =(
fine~~~

anyway while photographing the new member, I took the associates too!



look at the money plant, it starts to creep into my window. still standing tall, my beloved cactus is about 1.2m (it stands right beside pandan). it has been with the fam since I was 10yrs old, from a tiny winy small cactus in a small pot. my gramma gave it to me, she's a plant lover. the limau purut starts to fruit again!! yey~ we have many other plants like tujuh duri, kunyit, halia, sepulih, buluh jepun, hmm the rest I'm not sure what they are called.........